By and Bye
a blog about a girl getting rid of some extra pounds.Archive for journal
hip injury
I did something to my hip earlier at the end of week 4, twisted the ligament or what have you. It feels sort of like twisting your knee but at the hip. I tried to work through it in most of week 5 but it was getting worse instead of better. It has still been bothering me but it is slowly getting better. So my plan is to restart up on Thursday with week 5 -day 4 cardio, Friday week 5 – day 3 strength training/day 5 cardio, Saturday – day 6 cardio, Sunday – day off, Monday – week 6, and hopefully my hip won’t start acting up.
My other plan of attack is to up the resistance on the gazelle. It is taking me more work to keep my heart rate up than what it took when I initially started. So I think this past week my legs were flailing about at a ferocious rate, hence the hip hurt.
My other plan of attack is “I ain’t gonna feel bad about it!”
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I recently went to the bookstore and picked up my new favorite book The Eat Clean Diet, by Tosca Reno. The book is a wealth of information that I am devouring. I am anxiously looking forward to her second book coming out The Eat Clean Diet Cookbook. I have a gazillion cookbooks on my bookshelf and am looking forward to being able to cook out of one without worrying about what it will do with my health.
sluggish
The past few days I have been feeling pretty sluggish. My thyroid medicine has run out and I had a midnight realization that this could be contributing to it. I ran out of my 100mg and have been taking my leftover 88s until I can see the doctor next Wed. I also think the gravity of the toxicity of my MIL’s visit has been working the kinks out too, both with me and with my husband. I am super sensitive and it is really difficult being around someone who is sooooo negative and doesn’t know appropriate behavior.
I am strong.
In my body, in my heart and in my soul.
I am proud of myself,
for sticking with my plan,
for battling myself to workout today when I really felt like napping on the couch,
for realizing toxicity.
I will stick to my vision,
I will realize my goals.
I will live my dreams.
I am super proud of my husband who came home today and was feeling shitty and went upstairs all on his own, with no prompting or me trying to influence him verbally, and lifted weights and got on the gazelle. I couldn’t tell you when the last time he did either. This is the best support I could have ever asked for.
week 4 – day 1, day2 and day 3
Bleck, I have finished up a week long visit with my MiL, in which I took from Wednesday to Sunday off. I feel seriously depleted emotionally and it feels good to get back into a regular routine again. I am proud that I started up again after a little break. Myself in the past would have thought it too hard to restart again.
Strength Training, Week 4, Day 1 – exercises – 5lb weights
12:04 PM
Duration: 00:08:11
187* Calories
Heart Rate
max: 141 76%
avg: 116 63%
Exe. time in zone 102 – 167: 08:04
Cardio: Week 4, Day 1 *I did my OwnZone test twice and it said that I was from 21 to 66, that I was elite. Hmmmm, I thought I was amazing. I redid it after the workout and I was back to 21. So the calories for this workout on my polar are off, but I wish that I could burn this many calories in a workout.
gazelle
17:57min
164.4cal
1.35 miles
polar
12:15AM
00:18:02
598 cal
50% fat
heart rate
max 88% 162
avg 81% 150
moderate 00:14:19
hard 00:00:04
light 00:03:39
Cardio: Week 4, Day 2
gazelle
18:03 min
151.3 cal
1.25 miles
polar
01:05 PM
00:18:04
175 cal
40% fat
heart rate
max 79% 147
avg 73% 135
moderate 00:14:01
hard 00:00:28
light 00:03:35
Strength Training, Week 4, Day 2 – exercises – 5lb weights
08:53 AM
Duration: 00:17:04
84 Calories
Heart Rate
max: 120 65%
avg: 104 56%
Exe. time in zone 102 – 167: 09:18
Cardio: Week 4, Day 3
gazelle
18:14 min
154.2 cal
1.27 miles
polar
09:12 AM
00:18:11
192 cal
55% fat
heart rate
max 83% 153
avg 76% 140
moderate 00:09:29
hard 00:00:00
light 00:08:42
total calories burned: 276
Wednesday Weigh in: 339
upping it, bay-be
Tomorrow is the start of week 3 and a weigh in. My mini-goal is to up my cardio from 6 days at 15 minutes to 6 days at 17 minutes; consistent and gradual.
I am proud that I have accomplished consistent exercise for these past two weeks.
- I feel stronger already
- I am not as sore
- when I am in the zone, I feel powerful as hell
- I realized music is my biggest motivator
- I also realized that I can exercise when I don’t feel like it, and when I do – I feel better.
- Feeling stronger, not as sore and powerful as hell has made me feel connected with my goals and vision.
I commit to writing down my goals and plan of action.
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On another note:
I have some challenges coming up soon. I want to stay consistent with my fitness regeim and focussed on my goals.
My mother-in-law is coming down next week. That is an issue in itself, seeing as we don’t have the best relationship and that is not from lack from trying on my part.
There will be another memorial for my father-in-law’s passing. He died recently, June 15th – my birthday. These are my issues. Yes, of course I want to honor my FIL. It will be a hospital memorial for all of the patients who have passed away recently. So, it is not an intimate affair and I think it will be like taking a bandage off an open wound, and I am not so eager to relive recent sorrows.
i don’t feel like it
Last night I couldn’t fall asleep. I was too excited about a measly online purchase of yarn. Hi my name in Tiffany and I am addicted to yarn. We all have our vises. First of all I couldn’t stop thinking about my purchase. Then I couldn’t fall asleep without my cat Milo. Then he came and laid on my legs and I got too hot. In the meantime I had to get up for two bathroom breaks and it’s after 3am and I’m trying not to think about it to get stressed out. Somewhere in the middle of it all I finally fell asleep.
Getting no sleep makes for a hard wake up. I had to get my daughter’s breakfast on and I had a massive cup of coffee. Bleck. I so did not want to work out. Today was just gazelling. My goal all this week is 15min or above because I have been out of the loop since my car accident, Feb 14, 2007. So I didn’t want to work out, then I did it anyways -yay me!
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My husband, r, said the sweetest thing to me yesterday when he was home for lunch, the thing that pushed me back on track. He told me [paraphrased] that he loved me, that by knowing me I had changed him for the better to his true self. That he wants me to get rid of the weight, not aesthetically, because he wants me to be around for a long time. After he left back to work I felt sad for a little while. Then I was like, fuck-it and I went and pulled my Kathy Smith’s Lift Weights to Lose Weight : 1 Hour A Week to the Body You Want! and I made a fresh start with Strength Training Day 1 and then I went on the gazelle and did my stretching. Easy as pie, right?
Like I said on a spark message yesterday. I am trying to get over myself when I fuck up. I think the last time I stopped my program I missed a couple of work outs and ate a few bad meals and that was it, I just had to give up. Perfection or bust, it’s so much easier to give up than work for what you really want. My problem is I really want to eat delicious food and not exercise and still be thin. I gotta fix my thinking.
